By Jacques Fleury
“Just for today, do not worry
Just for today, do not anger,
Honor your parents, teachers and elders.
Earn your living honestly.
Show gratitude to everything”.
Dr. Mikao Usui
I was once walking down a road paved with rocks. It was like they were put there to slow me down, to keep me from reaching my ultimate destination. I was becoming quite angered with the constant stumbling and tripping, mind you. Then, I tripped onto this one particular rock with an oval shape and a glow like the moon in a black out. I didn’t know what to make of it at first. But then it came to me. I know that it will probably sound strange but that rock to me represented my unique ability to glow among seemingly hardened stones! I held the rock in my hand, and it felt like a beaming ray of energy zing zaging in all directions in my hands. I realized then that I held the power, formerly referred to as Reiki: Universal Life Force Energy!
I came upon this article on The Reiki Page. It was on the website: http://reiki.7gen.com/index.html. Dr. Usui was the founder and former practitioner of Reiki in the late 1800’s. I found his ethical philosophies to be deceptively simple, at least on a prima facie level. I stared at his words just as I did the rock, while deciding how to get beyond my first impression. For there is always an “opportunity” to find truth in any given situation, if you look closely enough. As a matter of fact, that very notion of “deceiving simplicity” was what drew me to explore and implore their empirical and spiritual depth, with a more curious eye and intuition. The philosophy to which I am referring is quoted at the top of this article. After reading it through, I decided to go through it line by line. For each line was deceivingly basic and fascinating to me!
“Just for today, do not worry.” I spend most of my days worrying. Mostly about this or/and that! And when I’m not worried, I anticipate becoming worried. So at times, when worrying left me in isolation, I started thinking. What is it that I’m not doing, while I’m worrying, that’s making me so anxious? Then it came to me! My heart was frozen! I had let the hurt and anger from the past overtake me, even more so than my mother, as you will see in further along in this article. I knew then that in order to increase blood flow to my frozen heart, I would have to thaw out its interconnecting veins! I realized that it was going to be an ongoing process.
“Just for today, do not anger.” The anger for me has been a constant struggle. I anger easily. Although, I am a joyful person. But I can’t seem to cope with disapproval in my life. It’s like my mother is perpetually hovering over my spirit, constantly molding and redirecting the beams of my eternal light. I want everything that I am to be accepted fully and wholly without reservations. I know that that’s not realistic of me to ask that of others, but I do. In effect, I’ve come to realize that that is something to undertake personally: to completely accept myself just as I am! Anger is often said to be the absence of love and the presence of fear. It becomes logical then that once I learn to stop being afraid to love myself, then there might be less room in my heart for anger and more room for love. Maybe that’s why I am so drawn to the supernatural world, like Reiki for example. It allows me to rise above it all, including myself! I’m learning to get out of my own way!
“Honor your parents, teachers and elders.” Now I have always, always been taught to honor the latter three. I am from Haiti and you don’t pass the womb until you learn that! But somewhere along the way, I started to question the notion of respecting your elders unconditionally, especially when you don’t necessarily get even a modicum of that respect back! For example, in Haiti at one time, you could not look at someone directly in the eye while talking to him or her if they are older than you! As a matter of fact, a young man acted like that with me just a couple of years ago. When I asked him why, he said that it was old “habit”. Yeah, old is the right word alright, I thought! Given all this, adults would call you names, talk down to you, and take your money, all in the name of love. And if you ask for that money back, there’ll be hell to pay for undermining the wisdom of a supposedly “honest” and “respectable adult.” Nowadays, I have learned that “respect” is a two-way street. I am just as worthy of it for my limited wisdom as my much “wiser” elders are worthy of it for their allegedly more comprehensive ones.
Jacques Fleury’s book: “Sparks in the Dark: A Lighter Shade of Blue, A Poetic Memoir” about life in Haiti & America was featured in the Boston Globe & available at www.lulu.com. Contact Jacques at: firstname.lastname@example.org and visit him at: www.facebook.com/thehaitianfirefly.